29 April 2013
At This Point In Time
And then I accept defeat and close the laptop.
The thing is, I feel happy. It feels as though this season of my life is exactly where I'm supposed to be right now. I'm also acutely aware of its finality. Tiho and I both recognize that this time next year could look very, very different for us. Good different, but different nonetheless. When I think about becoming a parent, or relocating somewhere totally new, or buying a house, or taking a leap of faith career-wise, I am excited and terrified. But, these thoughts also cause me to pull inward, like I want to keep everything quiet in fear of altering the universe's plan.
Because lately, I can't seem to define or determine exactly what my plan is, and while that usually makes me anxious, at this moment in time, it feels right.